i Went to a convention yesterday with my nephew... and it was really freakin' cool!! we mostly just looked around and i helped him set up his cosplay! (which is his oc lol xd) got Some sweet freakin' loot too >:D! some of them are for my friends but most are just for me and my nephew lol

a Few more pictures that i took!... if im being honest im kind of shy to show these.. but i cant not share lol!!

also Me and my nephew got some sicknasty pictures with a few cosplayers!!! ::D truthfully I am kind of scared of showing these with me and my nephew in it and i would really love to share these but for the sake of me and my nephew m' not gunna :sob: but i did take a few pictures with an fnf cosplayer and a taph cosplayer!! and my nephew got to take pictures with a denji, medic (tf2), and gojo cosplayer!

there Was a lotta anime cosplayers but my most notable ones that i saw was fnf, team fortress 2, and forsaken lol (yeah.. of course.. i wonder why..), I never thought people would actually cosplay them HERE!!... but hey i guess thats something; theres also this other fnf cosplayer that was selever but i never got a picture with them....... aswell as there being another medic and a heavy cosplayer!! but it was cool seeing them on the catwalk! i have a video of it but.. obviously im not gonna share that Xd..... i think there was also a chance cosplayer..? but i didnt want to assume... (i mean they did have his gun and everything... but you never knoww!!) we didnt get pictures with them sadly..

funnily Enough i am actually going to go cosplay with my nephew next time we go to another convention... (because i felt left ouuutt that my nephew had the joy and fun of cosplaying and i thought it would be fun :d)

if youre wondering who i am going to go cosplay as.. its elliot!! from work at a pizza place!! lol, I was originally gonna plan to go as nepeta next time but im just gonna save that for another time :d

hey Guys, Originally i was gonna make a blog post after my groups' final defense was done but im too excited to wait right now, Ok so....... this week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me, definitely , THE UNDERTALE STREAAAM THE UNDERTALE STREAAAM!!! it made me go insane, i managed to watch day 1 of it and it was awesome..... sadly i didnt get to watch day 2 since i had to lock in my groups' research paper, but im glad i can still rewatch it (which i soon will do), unfortunately i dont think i got on the echoflowers :( but thats fine lowkey, im just happy i got to submit and seeing all the new content onstream was enough for me

also Im glad toby fox released the sprites lol, Imagine if people had to go and recreate them 1:1 that would be hell me thinks, and the fact that they were quiet whenever a new area showed up LOL, i didnt notice at first till someone pointed it out but i like to imagine toby is just holding them at gunpoint to not say anything.

also I think this is really sweet that toby did this lol

and also the fact that???? papyrus' theme was suppposed to be lancers??? like what??? (it kind of reminds me of those jokes about lancer being sans' brother in deltarune lol and the fact toby brought this up made it even more funnier for me.)

truly Inspiring words

(i am trying to contain my excitement for the 10th anniversary stream because frankly i kind of geeked out in my friends' gc about it LOL, i feel like a ticking timebomb right now, if you are in my priv twitter my profile is just filled with undertale anniversary post retweets LOL, i'd talk more about it on here but i feel like im going to implode due to excitement if i think of it too much and i already kind of did that with my friends haha... dont get me started on the asriel and chara segment... oughh... hahahaha im normal)

anyway... Besides undertale, Zuka's shop is out!! im so happy, but also kind of overwhelmed because it got announced during my mid-fangirling about undertale and safe to say it nearly made me do a backflip over my chair when i got the announcement haha and zoo wee mama... the new 3 skins are adorable!!! i mean i have seen them before because of the few posts mentioning them but.. seeing them ingame is so!! awesome!! especially the stickers like oohhdwnad AND i can finally go and get jesterspace!! (finally!!) even though i couldve.... and i still havent... since... im busy with school and everything, yknow, but i will definitely be playing phighting more!!! oowwwaoaahhhhh!!!!!! (probably when i have the time)

MORE oNTO OTHER LATE NEWS!!! I MET AN ELLIOT COSPLAYER AT MY SCHOOL!! AND IT WAS SO COOL!! at first me and my friends thought we were tripping out and we had to do a double take lol.. and i managed to snag a picture with them!!! frankly that was one of the most awesomest and awkwardest thing ever cause there were a crowd of people waiting for their services and we just stood around for a solid minute looking like dorks trying to get their attention lol.. i think there was someone closet cosplaying 7n7 too? but i cant tell.... still cool regardless!

(id love to show the photos but i am kind of shy...)

where Do i even start off? oh yeah, Happy 10th anniversary! to think its already been 10+ years since undertale released? and to think i got into undertale for exactly 10 years!! i remember finding out about it through my nephew if i remember correctly, I never really thought much of it till i saw a bunch of my favorite youtubers at the time playing undertale and thought.. 'hey.. thats cool' and so i took the chance and got to learn more about undertale and became instantly a big fan! and im so glad i did because ive geniunely met some of the greatest people ever out of it, although im not a big fan as i used to be back in 2016-2021 undertale will always have a place in my heart and im glad to be a part of it .... honestly i dont know where id be if i didnt find out about undertale, this whole game literally shaped my entire life lol, quite literally, i remember me not really doing well at elementary school cause of it... always watching animations, minecraft roleplays, vine edits, and constantly thinking about undertale... etc... undertale really was there for my best and worst moments lol XD

because Of undertale i got to connect with people.. who became my friends!! i still have an ongoing friendships for over 7+ years because of undertale... crazy right?? its crazy how time flies by fast... growing up i kinda sucked at talking to people so having an interest to talk about to others was really nice. toby Fox is truly a big inspiration for me, If i hadnt found out about him i probably wouldnt know about touhou and homestuck XD...... homestuck being my third big interest as of late...... but thats besides the point....

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY UNDERTALE!!

and From the bottom of my heart, Thank you for everything.

okay So update on my previous post, My phone is completely fine it was just bugging out for like 10 hours then miraculously turned back on which i am eternally grateful for because im gonna bleed this thing dry for 5 more years (probably), you can say me and my phone were meant to be together... despite its ups and downs, the numerous cracks on the screen, and it only have 1gb storage left while also being laggy as hell.. its still usable... anything to save money... because truthfully? i kind of feel bad whenever my parents, especially my mom, get me anything too expensive or above 500 Php — i Remember freaking the fuck out so bad when my charger BROKE for the 4th time (can see it on my previous post back on 8/24..) that shit costed 3.5k and i felt so bad i didnt want to eat anything for an entire week (but of course i still had to), I honestly dont know why im like this, im eternally grateful my mom is understanding and cares i just feel so fucking bad everytime i ask to buy something from her.. .. minus if its food because im gonna share it with her (obviously...) i dont know.. it just feels.. selfish... but at the same time she got it for me and it makes me happy :)

anyway Enough about that blabbering... ive been thinking of a few things recently about my.. future? if im going to be honest my mental health isnt exactly the best, Sometimes id have days where everything feels good and nice but then i get those days where i feel shitty and gloomy, i just cant help it okay! i know i know im a human being and im a person and that i make mistakes like everyone else but sometimes... it just gets to me you know? like.. ugh... what am i gonna do with my life? im planning on entering EMC (Entertainment Multimedia Computing) or either webdev... (hehe) but aaghhh i dont knooowww!!! both... i am very interested in but at the same time im scared to persue them, Especially EMC since.. you know... art degree.. and stuff... hard to find a job and everything... hrn... they say 'shoot your shot!' and i definitely will be but sometimes i cant help but feel like im going to be.. a disappointment? to my family? though i dont think my parents think that way (atleast i dont think so), i think... i need to sort myself out... maybe.. get a pyschiatrist...? i dont know.. its kind of hard to talk my feelings out, it makes me all fidgety and weird having to just sit there and talk — ive Went to a pyschiatrist before, But ended abruptly and im kind of scared to ask my mom if i could go again, i really want to get help but uh, as you can see i have cripplig anxiety towards people spending too much expensive things on me. i Know it costed about 1.5k Php per session, Thats already alot! (not to mention they also pay for my tuiton!! which is around 34k? per semester) and it was face to face, i know theres an online one but... i dont know much THAT costs.. you know.. maybe ill give it a shot.. haha... :,)

maybe... I can just hear people screaming at my face... 'then take it!! your mom cares about you enough to let you see a pyschiatrist' and... youre right, Im just.. i dont know how to tell her again since it took a lot of convincing the first time... uhm... ill think about it later in the future... for now... im just going to have fun!! and hold on, I guess

ok So uhm i have a lot on my mind holy shit im so unlucky today, Had a slight breakdown at school then my earphones left earbud broke and my phone broke when i went to go and check the battery percentage to charge it because it was really low when i was at school, i didnt expect it to just??? die??? well... to be fair the screen was pretty cracked and i have to move it and adjust the position just to charge it but still i didnt expect it to die this early.

ive Had this phone for 7 years now and seeing it just actually die is so sad for me, i... I HAVE PHOTOS IN THERE!!!!!! of me and my friends that i forgot to save... maybe i can just get it transferred somehow because thats like a year and a half worth of memories, Maybe i can get my phone fixed...? because i really dont want to part from it but at the same time i really gotta let go man :skull: i was gonna ask for my dads' other phone since he got a new one but turns out they gave it to my nephew which is like yeah whatever i didnt need a new phone at the time but right now i actually need one lol, its not like im urgently wanting one i can probably live without one since i still have my laptop but ugh its just gonna be inconvenient since i wont be able to contact my friends when im outside or at school for a bit....

though My mom did say shes going to get it checked out and possibly get me a new one in saturday? i dont knooowww she might forget and honestly i dont mind, I feel like i should be more reactive than i should be but its honestly not that bad?? just a minor inconvenience but still, ugh.

on A good note me and some people played mobile games earlier at class and it made me feel slightly better, (mind you i didnt find out my phone was broken till i got home) so theres that i guess....

ok This has been on my mind for quite some time now, I should be asleep since its like 11:21 pm as im writing this and i have 10 hours of classes tomorrow but like fuck it we ball i guess!!! (this wont take too long......). uhm Anyway random tangents aside, Ive been thinking of doing commissions for uhh.. i actually have no idea what the name for these are but like, character page decorations??? i guess??? like the venomshank perched atop of my status container, somethin like that

like... Maybe little chibi characters....? i mean it doesnt really have to be a webpage decoration to be exact, Can be used for anything really. (Duh) but i dunnoooooo i kinda suck at selling myself and some of my examples on my kofi are kind of old (i should really update them, but im kinddaaaaa laaaazzzyyyyy........)

my Commissions are already chibi though............ chibi art 2.0..................... maybe. >:c
ill Probably price them around 5-6 USD, Since i only really want pocket money and dont really plan on making a living out of them, just somethin for fun. making These dont take that long honestly, Depends on the design and how detailed it is .-.

OK, sO YOU MIGHT BE WONDERING.. (probably only like, 1 person here) "tobey.. why did you change the layout of your site..?" and my answer to that iiiisss!!! i kind of didnt like the old one.... ok well thats a lie i did like it sorta, And also the way the middle container kept buggin out was kinda pissing me off cause i had to fix it and shit everytime i had to do something.. (really goes to show my awful way of coding stuff XD) so i changed it! so now atleast its.. kind of not that difficult to look at.. OKAY WELL MAYBE IT IS (on the inside) but i can organize allat later :/

im Thinking of adding other stuff on the new layout too but im not sure how to incorporate it... the navigation looks kind of awkward to look at o_O (maybe its just me? no? you also think its akwward? ok), When i think of something... grrr.. GRAHHHH!!! ill add it :)

oh And if youre wondering what my old layout used to look like,
It was like this!

sooooo My birthday ended 2 days agoo..... and im 17 now!! woohoo!! i dont really know what to feel honestly.. im old.. (ok well not really im still a wee little baby kinda) and i can feel the impending doom thats creeping closer as i grow older and im kinda scared about that... *shiver* jobs, admittedly i am (kinda) self employed at the moment but hoo boy im afraid to get... an actual.. job , cause during those mock interviews i was in i kinda fumbled it so bad like im not even joking duudee (ok maybe i am exaggerating it alittle) BUT I GET SO NERVOUS EASILY and im so anxious about these kinds of things yknow?? and i end up overthinking it and bam... i... FUMBLE

sometimes This makes me wonder how im gonna be a functioning member of society like, Ugh.. i can barely even stand to look at someone in the eye let alone talk to someone face to face unless im close to them in someway.... the curse of being neurodivergent..!!! sometimes i just wish i was normal yknow? like... not all anxious.. and quiet... and easily irritable... and loses focus all the time.... and slow at thinking.... but here in the internet i kind of have no problems expressing myself.. since.. i dont have to make eye contact with anyone and can take my time thinking about the answers i wanna say lol xd

though.. It still is kind of confusing sometimes whenever someone says something to me and its in a mean/sarcastic tone, And half the time i cant tell if theyre being geniune or not... so i just brush it off as jokes 80% of time since.. you know how the world/internet is right now.... and stuff..... but sometimes there are just geniune assholes here .-. then they try to double down, Like talk about schrodingers douchebag amiright? it still kind of hurts though, but i try not to let it get to me

like.. AAGHHH I want to claw my face out.. did i do something wrong?? was it something i said?? what did i doo :(? (honestly.. i think i just need to learn how to not give a shit sometimes and not let peoples words get to me...)

OKAY I am finally back!! got my new... 4th charger... at this point i feel like i shouldnt be allowed any outlets, I legitimately have NO idea what im doing wrong this is like my 4th charger in a YEAR!! A YEAAARR!!! like?? i did everything i needed to do so it doesnt break and it still does? for some reason?? this time im going to DEFINITELY be extra careful because these chargers are not cheap, i feel so bad for my momma.. (sorry ;_;)

anywho Besides that... i still have not figured out a way to make my blogs optimal!!! this sucks, Because the way im formatting them is kind of tedious you know? and uh, not to mention its kind of not efficient??? im still looking for ways to do these more easier.. . though im wondering how exactly im going to implement it... oh well... ,-,

i swear!! ill format these... in a more optimal way!! when i figure out how to... (i need help!!!!!!!)

OKKK sOOO i have alot on my mind right now..... finally updated my website..!! again.... still thinking of how im gonna make these blogs a bit more optimal .-. .. ill probably try and look for a solution because haha.... the way im doing these is... kind of bad to say the least... but HEY!! once i find a solution i wont have to do these anymore >:D

any Who besides my website... NEW DANDYS WORLD UPDATE IS SO CRAAAZYYYY THE STICKERS, tHE NEW FLOORS, NEW FLOOR EVENT, and dyle?????? its all just so awesome it makes me want to jump with joy and scream really loudly. i First yelped when i saw dyle cause i had no idea who he was, i dont think anyone did?? not even a teaser for him or anything?? his floor is actually quite fun to do; although i havent beaten it yet. but Im trying!!! i always keep lagging and getting killed :C i nearly finished it on my own earlier when two of my friends died but my ping decided to be an ass and said 'oh.. nearly done with that..? well TOO BAD!' and gave me 10k lagspike and next thing i know im DEAD!!

also Tried out brusha.. shes pretty okay i guess? i enjoyed playing as her :d shes kind of like a little meat shield for extractors since you know.. you gotta get up close to them.. its really interesting shes one of the first toons to have a toggle option.. besides bassie, i think?

im Still going to try and beat his floor... 50 permanent stamina in a run isnt all that much but its a nice thing to have, I guess? .-.

OHH yEAH, I also started a mc server with my friends!! very fun... very chilling.. decided to make my house in the sky instead of my usual hobbit hole of a house.. so far its doing fine, i havent started making my house yet but i have fixed the terrain, somewhat :d
its been so long since me and my friends played minecraft so...

and Besides all that... sigh... i have an oral defense proposal i have to do on thursday this week.. im not even sure im ready honestly, i mumble up my words and what if i dont speak loud enough?? or what if i forget my memorized script?? speaking of script i havent even begun to memorize mine let alone make a script for the other one im about to present, hooly fucking shiit im so coooookeeddd uhhghhghghg AHHHhh

i dont really want to do this...but theres a chance that the mass that my school is holding might not get cancelled, but still.. it will still hit my group since were the 2nd ones to present!! heres to hoping that it DOES get cancelled on thursday so that the other groups would be too anxious to pay attention to whatever im saying.... okay... i should really get to memorizing my script now ... the only comforting thing i can think of is my other friends' group is not being cooperative.. (sorry sam..), but im pretty sure its because theyre chill due to the fact theyre the ones present after us..... 3rd.. the number that WE wanted but my group leader kinda fumbled the rock paper scissors bit, but its okay atleast we get to watch the first group perform.. and then bam its us and easy peasy lemon squeezy were done fast!...

im just really scared about the QnA section... since... our oral defense is supposed to be 20 minutes long..... heres to hoping we dont get questioned alot.. gulp..

thinking of adding more stuff to my website.. preferably decoration since its abit sparse, but i cant think of anything :,) ultimately i suck at making designs.... and even when i do think of something it always looks so messy to look at and makes no sense, i mean hey its part of the process right?? still though.... i dont know how some people do it aahhggg, i keep thinking of something but then it suddenly vanishes.. maybe i should note it down next time i have an idea or something

oh to design something easily and actually do them... so many things i want to execute but lack the skills to do so — maybe i should start with actually doing them instead of sulking about it, but theres this scary entity called procrastination thats preventing me from doing so..... its not my fault!!! (yes it is), ill see what i can do to the best of my abilities i suppose :d

OKAY sO I WASNT EXPECTING TRAGEDY TO ACTUALLY WIN ToT....... i thought comedy was going to get the last laugh but NO! i was wrong!! im so happy AAAAAAAA legitimately jumped with join during break on my exams when my friend showed me the results on his phone like WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT????????? im pretty sure some of my classmates were lookin at me funny when i screamed... oops...... but anyways...

im so joyous!!! the skins for katana are so cute too, especially the concept art of them. i wasnt expecting 3 SKINS for katana (apparently?? i havent seen the other one..) theyre pretty cool... pretty swag...

also im so glad i can still get jesterspace, i thought i wouldnt be able to get him after the phest.. lucky me!! :D i dont really know what else to say about the phest.. besides the.... scary happenins going on in twitter that id really rather not talk about :7 but i had fun this phest!! its a shame theres no phighter QnA but its to be expected i guess :d

Wow.. my second blog... and its about Phighting... anywho;
So far the phestival has been fun!!! i really love the new skins :D especially the vineberry skin!! i love that one so much dudes you have no idea its just so cuutteee like look at her, i think they did an amazing job!!!

Anyway besides that; if im being honest playing support throughout this whole event kinda sucks... cause i get easily killed even when im with my teammates (i main vine and rocket but i play vine more) so im kind of put off from playing sometimes, currently im at the boss rank and im hoping to get to atleast idol or deity.. but its abit hard to get into the game when your teammates are mostly trying to get the most in k/a (talking about when its capture the point), it kinda throws me off you know???? i dont know but maybe its a skill issue on my part? _(maybe....) i have no idea if anyone is experiencing this issue aswell... maybe i just have badluck _{(is it badluck???)}

Youre probably saying "why not play rocket or literally any other character" i do, but it just doesnt feel the same.. you know? i love playing support alot so yeah, its embedded in my VEINS any other class makes me shiver and wilt, and maybe yeah im a bit weak for that but i dont care im having fun, anyway; ill Probably try and attempt to get to idol _{(as i stated before)} i havent really been able to participate all that much cause of school and all...

Besides aaalll of that i think the events that can happen in the phest is so funny, Personally i havent experienced the phighting beans but i have experienced the sticker one and fog and im actually really happy about it, Its really fun, especially the fog , it really makes the gameplay abit more interesting and funny xd

OH AND THE NEW MAPS, LIKE HELLO?? i got jumpscared when i saw fractured space for the first time like WHAAT; saw someone pointed out that in overtime that the clock up top the map breaks and i think thats such a cool detail?? no wonder it took them 7 months to make that map because hoooly its sick as shiit, besides that the new playground map is so cool aswell although my only issue with it is how small it is, kind of hard to play in and theres a lot going on that distracts me alot but other than that i think its a really lovely well made map like wow THIS IS SO COOL?? if this is how this map is gonna look i wonder how detailed the crossroads revamp will be.... i can only imagine dude..

anywho happy phestival!!! i cant wait to see who wins >:D

currently Its 2am as of writing this, Ive finally finished making this website!!! im really happy with the way it turned out, although i might add a few more things to it :d though ill probably do it some other time because i am kind of waaasheeeedddd :dead: i dont really know what else to say here really..... other than WOHOO!!